Today, I took back the darling gray skirt I bought last weekend. When I walked, it rode up and bunched across the front so I went to exchange it for a bigger size. Of course the bigger size didn’t fit right either. I was bemoaning to myself that I always have that problem: nothing fits my hips and my waist. If it’s big enough for my hips, it’s too big in the waist and vice versa.I then thought about the fact that I have a really hard time finding blouses to fit across my bust and fit well everywhere else. To fit my bust, I usually end up with a shirt that’s much too baggy in the waist and too big in the shoulders.
As I had this conversation with myself, I was subconsciously drawing a picture of my figure. When I finished berating both the top and bottom half, an image popped into my head of what it looked like all together. That picture was an hourglass. And I realized I really am an “hourglass” figure.
I’ve always “known” that the body type closest to mine is an hourglass but I’ve never really had it sink in the way it did today. And I’ve always thought that the shape I needed to be to be attractive was the rectangle, or ruler, or whatever you want to label it. I wanted to be tall, lean and straight. I’ll never be any of those and be healthy. And today I realized, I don’t want it to be the ruler. I love that I’m an hourglass.
You know who else is an hourglass? And I don’t mind at all having something in common with Ms. Christina Hendricks. 🙂
It’s hard to express how profound this moment was for me, but I felt like a huge awakening. I realized have a figure similar to women I find absolutely beautiful.
Today, I accepted my body. Today, I learned to love my body in a way I haven’t been able to in the past. Maybe all of Caitlin’s Operation Beautiful excitement today helped with this realization. It wasn’t conscious, which was even better because I think that means it’s deep within me. I think I’ve finally accepted that women come in all different shapes and the perfect body shape is the shape that’s perfect for me.
And I think my curves are beautiful.
What do you love most about your figure?